Five Weeks and Counting

I am in my fifth week of Aviation Maintenance Technology (AMT) school. It’s a drastic change from my previous life, but from the first day, I have had exactly zero moments of doubt. Even when my week…


独家优惠奖金 100% 高达 1 BTC + 180 免费旋转

I want to run away

I want to leave. I just want to pack my bags and disappear without saying goodbye. I think it would be easier that way, not saying goodbye. No tears and no guilt trips. I don’t belong here anymore. This old town makes me suffocate and it’s so hard to get a grasp.

Yes, this city made me the person that I am today but it is also the same place where I lost myself. I live in a never ending cycle of dealing with the same people. It’s the same faces everywhere because there’s nowhere else to look. In this small town, everyone knows every single one.

I want to run away and disappear. I mean, it would be easy since my whole life I’ve been running away from everything. Maybe it’s not just the place, maybe I want to run away from myself too because I’m also the problem. I could just cut people off and not participate in the cycle, but I don’t. Maybe I’m the toxic one. I keep saying that I’m tired of it and yet I still go out every night to get drunk and sleep with random guys I meet at a club. I regret it the next day and ask myself “what’s wrong with you?” but I just brush it off then repeat. I never took the time to pause and think for a second because my main escape would be just drowning myself in alcohol. That’s how I run away from my problems.

I want to start a new life where people don’t know my name. Free to express myself and could finally breathe again in a place where I could call mine.

Add a comment

Related posts:

How to date in 2018 without using apps

In a world of Tinder and Grindr, dating in 2018 without using apps like these almost seems impossible. But with so many daters struggling with online fatigue — and the routine of downloading and…

Thank You. It Means a Lot.

Giving thanks is easy. Ideally, it is also automatic. Everyone is busy - but we are not too busy to take a few minutes to show appreciation to those who give us their time, treasure, or talent. Here are 5 low-cost, low-impact ways to show gratitude.

The serpent inside me

Serpent as a source of healing, transformation and rebirth. Serpent as my spirit animal, and my connection to the earthly and the divine of the universe. A short poem part of a storytelling series.